ANXIETY

I WAS TOLD IN DEC OF 2011 THAT I HAD COPD. I STARTED MY MED AND DID THEM FAITHFULLY. THEN THIS PAST NOV THEY WANTED ME TO DO A BIOPSY ON MY LUNG. THERES WHERE THE NIGHMARE BEGAN. WITH IN A DAY MY LUNG COLAPSED AND I SPENT A WEEK IN THE HOSPITAL. WAS SENT HOME AND AFTER ANOTHER DAY MY LUNG COLAPSED AGAIN WHICH SENT ME TO THE HOSPITAL AND I WAS INTABATED FOR ANOTHER WEEK, WAS GETTING READY TO GO HOME AFTER SOME TIME, AND THEY DOCTORS SAID I NEEDED TO COUGH. SO I DID AND UNDED UP AGAIN IN ICU WITH A MUCAS PLUG. THE DOCTOR TOLD MY HUSBAND THAT IF THE MED DIDNT WORK THEY WOULD JUST HAVE TO LET ME GO (DIE). I GOT BETTER. WAS SENT HOME AFTER A MONTH, HAD TO RELEARN TO WALK AFTER BEING IN BED THAT LONG. WORKED HARD AND GOT SO I COULD WALK AND THE ONLY TIME I NEEDED OXOGYN WAS AT NIGHT. NOW WITH IN THE WAS 2 TO 3 WEEKS, IM BACK ON OXOGYN 24/7 AND MY DOCTORS DONT KNOW REALLY WHAT TO DO. THEY DONT KNOW IF ITS MY HEART OR IF I HAVE BLOOD CLOTS. I CANT EXERCISE ALOT BECAUSE MY HEART RATE SOARS TO OVER 140 IF I TRY TO DO ANY EXERCISE FOR ANY AMOUNT OF TIME. EVEN IF I WALK TO THE BATHROOM 10 FT AWAY, NOT TO MENTION THE BACK FUSION IVE HAD. I DONT KNOW HOW I WENT FROM DOING EVERYTHING FOR THE HOME, TO BEING TETHERED TO AN OXOGYN MACHINE WITH IN 9 MTHS. IM SO DEPRESSED. MY ONLY FRIEND AND NEW HUSBAND ( WE WERE MARRIED 2 WEEKS BEFORE EVERYTHING HAPPENED.) IS MY ONLY FRIEND. NEITHER ONE OF US REALLY HAVE FRIENDS WE CAN VENT TO OR CAN COUNT ON. SOME DAYS I DONT EVEN WANT TO WAKE UP, BUT I KEEP FIGHTING FOR ME AND MY NEW HUSBAND OR I WOULD JUST GIVE UP. ANY SUGGESTIONS WOULD BE HELPFUL. THANKYOU FOR YOUR TIME, AND GOD BLESS YOU.