Ok I am glad to have found this sight.
I am married and my spouse Dan has COPD. he was told this 10 yrs ago. He is now retired and its come down to him being on oxygen 24/7
He leaves the house maybe once a week.
We saw Dr yesterday , she said he is where he should be. maybe its myself who should see a counselor since I seem to be having the problems.
I guess I just want my husband back. Which is something that is not going to happen. He used to go to Alaska and Africa and hunt big game. He worked 24/7 in the first 10 yrs of our marriage. We had plans on him taking me to Hawaii, Africa and all sorts of exciting places.
The reality now 20 yesrs after is he stays on couch , unless he is in bed. We dont even go out to eat.
I have started going places for a few days to up to 2 weeks without him. He has no problem with this,.
I guess I am just wanting what cant be.
I feel so alone. Lovemaking is something we no longer do. I am just house keeper , go fer person and cry myself to sleep at nights.
There has got to be more to life than this. But where do you draw the line?
Thanks to anyone who has mande it this far into my rant.