I was told two and a half years ago that I had asthma, chronic bronchitis ,COPD , and in stage 3 emphysema, I didn't believe them. I partied, smoked ,drank and did so everyday. Until last year, my lungs got so bad that I had to go in and have surgery done, I was struggling to breathe, I couldn't walk without taking a few steps and had to set down before I passed out.I can't take steroids because I'm allergic to them, infact I'm allergic to a lot of the drugs that treat my conditions . With that being said; here lately it's been really hard to breathe, walking takes it out of me fast, I'm so wore out , I feel like I'm suffocating all the time.
I watched my grandmother and my aunt passed away of COPD and emphysema and in the end their death was awful. And it will be the same for me, and it makes this harder being alone, because watching them struggle to just get some air to breathe and it puts so much pressure on the heart too. That you want to just go ahead and give up. I don't want to put my loved ones through that, hell I don't want to go through that, I have my days where I want to end it, so I don't go out like that. Can someone tell me that there's hope, yes I know it's bad, but it's not like it used to be is it, where your suffering and miserable because you can't get the help that you need. there has to be more natural ways somewhere out there that will help me, since the medicine they use to heal us, I'm allergic to . I'm not sure where or what or even how I'm going to make it through this.