I'm having a really bad few days right now. Great difficulty breathing and accomplishing small tasks. I'm trying really hard to hide it from family and friends. I'm a smoker and while I'm aware I have to quit I still have to deal with the here and now. I also work full time and have to try to mask it there as well. I have no one to be honest with about how I'm feeling. I have a bunch of prednisone and I'm really tempted to start taking it but I'm starting a new treatment on Wednesday and I really want to be able to judge my reaction to it. I don't know how I'm going to get through the next few days. Any other illness I'd be able to be upfront about but I feel I have to hide this.