I have smoked for 50 years. My breathing has become awful. I'm tired all the time, in a bad mood most the time, it is awful and not me at all. My breathing is so bad that at times I literally seize up and there is no breath at all. Do I smoke? I do. More than ever. Close to if not two packs a day. What in the world is my problem?? The word Addiction I don't know how I feel it's ridiculous. It's more of a Feeling of I just don't care anymore. I just don't know very very confused. Any good answers or advice out there??