Hi guys. Not really having time to elaborate but. This might be approaching the end of the line for my mom. I'm not sure if I should be trying to medicate my mom out of this, or what. But she's on hospice for COPD and she's sort of dropped off into delirium. She can eventually be dragged out of it but she will slip back in. Hospice supplies Haldol but they told me to not use it if she isn't being self-harm-y or other harm-y. Her lungs and all seem to sound the same as they've always done (according to hospice). I don't know if I should take her off of hospice for COPD and return her to her specialist for treatment, or a psych, or what.
Her blood pressure also went through the floor last month and so she needed to be removed from both BP meds which is apparently a sign that she's.. progressing.
I'm just not sure what to do to do right by her. We were expecting to lose her in Oct, she's made it through Nov now. Lots of dreams of going out on bus trips with seniors and other stuff - the kinds of things she used to do to entertain herself post-retirement. She worries about being able to get back home - to here. I feel like a lodestar reminding her over and over.
This is the hardest thing I have ever done and I'm not done yet. I just don't know what would be better.