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  • By Sam1

    Today and yesterday I was extremely fatigued and today I’m very short of breath. I know it’s not going to improve so I wish I was dead already. I’m finding this extremely discomforting and I am irritated and aggravated by every aspect of existing. I’ve been stuck in this house for weeks and I’m sick of it. I will not go to the e.r because I don’t want to be kept alive any longer than I have to be and that’s what will happen if I go. I will continue to smoke heavily as I have for 38 years because it will speed things up and hasten my death. I can’t stand to be here any longer.

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  • By Lyn Harper, RRT Moderator

    Hi Sam1,

    It breaks my heart to read your post. I’m so sorry for how you’re feeling and what you’re going through. We all have our breaking point and it sounds like you’ve reached yours. Being stuck in the house, islolated, and secluded can have a terrible effect on us, especially when we’re already feeling down.

    Please know that there are people that care about you. I’m sure you’ve read similiar stories here on COPD.net that show others can and do relate to what you’re going through. It doesn’t change it, but it is good to know others can sympathize with us.

    I know you said you don’t want to go to the ER, but please don’t suffer with the shortness of breath if you don’t have to. You may have developed an infection that could be helped by medication or something equally simple. You always have the choice to say yes or no to treatment – so please don’t avoid going becuase you think they’ll force you to do something you don’t want.

    I’m glad you found this site and feel comfortable expressing yourself – others can relate.

    Warmest Regards,

    Lyn (moderator)

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  • By Leon Lebowitz, BA, RRT Moderator

    Hi Sam1.

    Like, Lyn, my heart goes out to you. Lyn has provided you with some powerful and heartfelt guidance. Suffering at home alone will only increase your discomfort. Seeking support and care may help you to feel better. There are many here on our website who can provide emotional support and clear guidance. Please continue to voice your thoughts here as you need to, but also, either call your physician and/or make a visit to the Emergency Department.
    We are here to you!

    Should you feel the need for additional support some of these resources might be able to help:
    COPD Information Line: 1-866-316-COPD (2673)

    Plus these online support groups:
    – Lung Connection Community: http://connection.lung.org/
    – My Fighting for Air Community: http://lung.lotsahelpinghands.com/caregiving/home/
    – Better Breathers Clubs: http://www.lung.org/…/connect…/better-breathers-clubs/
    I know this is a lot of info at once but this list provides you with some alternate support that is easily accessible.

    Wishing you the best,
    Leon (site moderator)

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