What Am I Trying To Say?

Whether we like it or not, we have moved to the fast track, which offers immediate convenience and response. We can email a letter and get a response in a matter of minutes if the person that you are sending to is quick to reply. I’m so guilty of that. For self-preservation, I shop online too, no fragrances, etc. to have to cope with. Then I hurry to wait for the order receipt, to make sure all is correct. It’s so much easier to pay bills online and saves a postage stamp! Besides by typing, no one can see the shaking hand. That happens often. There is nothing compared to the shakes after using my inhaler or nebulizer.

Detour signs

I was like that when doing things too. If I saw something that needed to be done, I needed to do it now. In my young days, I was a procrastinator, then I moved into this “get ‘er done” attitude, that my husband would call my OCD moments. I still have those, only I see detour signs everywhere I go. Dog’s food bowl is empty, fill it. Did I put my keys in the right compartment of purse, check it out quick. About 20 minutes later, I figure out what I was looking for. I think others do that too, don’t they? Talk about hurry to be late.

Doing some of this is more difficult now, as is the confusion.

Confusion

There have been times when I start talking and then I look at my husband because I’m lost. I have no idea what I am trying to say. I’m so grateful because my husband usually knows me enough to help finish my sentences, without me asking him what I am trying to say. It’s embarrassing to be this way with him and so sad when others are around. Earlier, I was talking to my brother and in the middle of a sentence, I couldn’t remember the words ‘independent contractor’. I just quickly changed that topic to something else that I could think up. I think more people are realizing that periodically I’m in the fog. And at times, it is very confusing.

Why is this happening?

Is it COPD? Other health issues? Meds? Do we have to put a name to it? It seems I have to have a reason for everything but I am getting better with that. Because I don’t know, and knowing isn’t going to change anything. It’s embarrassing, especially when we are with others. Thankfully though, I don’t have problems with knowing where I’m going, but I’m definitely in the fog when this happens. Sometimes I have to stop and think about it.

I hope this doesn’t frighten anyone. Confusion can be a symptom of COPD. That’s why I’m sharing this. Each of us is different. Do you struggle with confusion or anything similar? For later stages, some are prone to retaining CO2. Doing pursed-lip breathing can help to expel the CO2. When confusion is really bad, I know to check my O2. Sometimes it’s low and wearing O2 during these times helps. I am on night oxygen and days if needed.

I do Soduko and other games that are supposed to be good for increasing memory. I don’t know if it’s working or not, but I’ll keep doing them. I sure don’t want to forget any more than I already do.

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  • LynnInUtah
    1 month ago

    Thank you. Me to a T. It can’t happen to me. Right?

  • Janet Plank author
    1 month ago

    LynninUtah you sad it best and those words are something I’ve used about things and am sure others have thought the same.

  • Barbara Moore moderator
    1 month ago

    Hi LynnInUtah, It is our new ‘normal’ and it seems to be happening to all of us. It helps to know that we, and our struggles, are not alone. Thank you for your comment. Barbara (site moderator)

  • Leon Lebowitz, BA, RRT moderator
    1 month ago

    Hi LynnInUtah and thanks for your post. You’re so right – I can’t tell you how many patients I’ve seen who said the same exact thing! Sentiments are very similar. Wishing you well, Leon (site moderator)

  • Connie
    1 month ago

    This has been happening to me a lot lately. Not that I am happy it is happening to someone else but it helps me to know it isn’t just me. Thank you for sharing your experience with me.

  • Barbara Moore moderator
    1 month ago

    Hi Connie, You are right, its not that you enjoy hearing someone else is going through the same thing but it is nice to know that you are in that “normal” range. That’s why it is so important that we start the conversation. Thank you for your comments. We appreciate everyone of them. Barbara (Site Moderator)

  • Janet Plank author
    1 month ago

    Hi Connie
    Always know that you aren’t alone.
    Than you for responding.
    Janet (site moderator)

  • Leon Lebowitz, BA, RRT moderator
    1 month ago

    Hi Connie and thanks for your post. Glad to see this article by our own Janet Plank, was helpful for you to read. As she indicated (above), you are never alone here in our online community. Warm regards, Leon (site moderator)

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