17 years pissed off and mad
Just wandering if I am the only one that's mad about it. Someday I am so mad about I want to end it. I no my past has everything to do with my copd. Once I got to partying smoking doping drinking. I feel my fate was sealed. If I would have to more precautions I wouldn't be this bad off.. see many years ago I did one line of meth. And then it was on I did just do a line . I did all every way u can do It did it. Then I cooked it. I guess I thought I was unstoppable. Nothing could get me . Until I meet copd
Hi
. Anger is a normal and common reaction to COPD as is that tendency to look back and blame yourself. Of course, you could have done things differently and avoided COPD, but you have to look at the bigger picture -- who you were then and what forces in your life impacted your decisions. My guess is that there were lots of reasons you smoked, partied and tried meth and that many of those reasons go deeper than a sense of invincibility. There is no room for self-blame with COPD. It only prevents you from making the best of the life you have now. Have you ever talked with anyone about your anger -- a friend, a doctor, a pastor or a therapist? If not, it might be worthwhile to give it a try. It can be really helpful to have an uninvested third party as a sounding board.
While you wait for responses from others in the community, I thought you might be interested in this article: https://copd.net/living/previous-life-part-2. Please know we are here for you whenever you need support or a place to vent. You are not alone and your feelings are valid. Gentle hugs. - Lori (Team Member)4 years after retiring from the Army in 1993 (29 years), I was diagnosed with COPD. I too enjoyed life to it's fullest. I quit alcohol a year prior, but I didn't stop smoking until 2006. Started on a 3 medication therapy, then 2 after 4 years. Now I'm using Breztri for the past 2 years. Getting medical care from a military facility is no walk in the park. For the past 10 years, it's been ctscans, nothing else. Only if there is a problem did they contact me. 4 months ago I made an appointment for a PFT, through the hospital line. Never had a dedicated pulmonaligist until after results of the PFT. Now my new Doctor, who I made aware of my journey said he won't let happen again. I spent a lot of time researching COPD and tried what worked and what didn't for me. I'm 80 now, just got Caire portable concentrator 6 weeks ago, and my life style has changed significantly. Yard work, car repairs, and fishing with my son, his daughter, and her son. 3 generations enjoying a day at lake. I also have 3 other sons, 2 of which are grandfathers. Life is there for the taking. You just have to reach out, grab it and hold on tight as you go a journey.
AlohaI know a few other service members who are suffering with COPD and COPD-like illnesses due to burn pits and all sort of things. Thank you for your service, by the way! It does sound like you found a doctor who is actually listening to you, though, so that is good. It is a journey, you are right - sometimes it is difficult and sometimes, here and there, it is good. Hopefully. Keep on keepin' on, DPM
Mahalo for your encouraging words. Have a blessed day.
Charvis
