Stupidity
I am a 59 year old female and was officially diagnosed with COPD in January 2016. I had been told several times to quit smoking over the years but I was stupid and thought that nothing was going to happen to me. I struggled with S.O.B. for quite a while and last September 29, I was taken to the hospital by ambulance the first time. My first exacerbation and last cigarette.
Had another exacerbation in November, December, and January, all of which I was hospitalized for. Broke 3 ribs from coughing and have recently been diagnosed with osteoporosis after fracturing my T12 vertebrae and found a lipoma in my spinal cord at my T10-T12 vertebrae.
I have suffered from anxiety and depression way before COPD. I get stressed very easily and that makes me feel worse. I stay in bed a lot most days and think of all the things I need to do and can't. Depressing.
The whole thing with my back is the main issue right now. I finally found a neurosurgeon in NYC to see me and he said we won't do anything about the lipoma, and I have an appointment next week to see his partner about possible bone cement for the fracture. Been in pain for about 8 weeks now but at least for the last two, I haven't needed Percocet which I really dislike taking.
My husband of 36 yrs and my 5 children are not used to seeing me down like this. They all have always told me I am the strongest woman they have ever seen. I was a hard worker but not now. I have bad days, not so bad days, and good days. To me, a positive attitude plays a big part in how I feel. That is difficult for me. I love Jesus and He takes care of me more than even I realize. Hope none of you on here mind but I will be praying for you.
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