How Overwhelming Moving Has Been

It was quite a surreal moment seeing my family after so long. They hadn't been around when I was diagnosed, so I'm sure it was a shock. I wasn't the bouncy, bubbly person they remembered. My sisters-in-law were so kind and I could see how painful it was for them. Everyone's concern was a bit overwhelming, but it's only normal when people love you.

Walking on egg shells

It was something I was very aware of. I didn't want them to treat me any differently because of my condition. Unfortunately, it's human nature and that's exactly what happened. I couldn't blame them and the more time I spent with them, the easier it got for us all.

Being myself

I found it so easy to do and I think it helped them understand me better. It was so hard for them to come to terms with initially. My positive outlook on life and my motivation for a better life gave them hope.

Doing things for myself

When I arrived, I knew that I would have to do some things I feared. One of them was climbing stairs. To my surprise, I didn't find them too difficult at all. I was out of breath but managed well. Choosing to bathe or shower was another struggle to overcome. Before moving I only showered because our bath was too high to get into. Here I had a choice because the bath was perfect. I now bath daily without fear. That's a milestone for me. I've got some of my independence back.

Doctor in my new country

It was quite an easy process to make a doctor's appointment because I'm a British citizen. The efficiency of the system here was an eye-opener. As soon as I got my NHS number, I was contacted by a doctor who telephonically appraised my health and wanted to know what medications I was on. I found out later that it would cost me nothing. To me, that was just amazing.

My first appointment

I have one tomorrow. Since the beginning of the year, I've been losing weight. For this reason, the doctor has asked for a full blood test. It's quite a scary time for me, but I feel supported and loved so it helps. Tomorrow I will be traveling to the next town over to have my blood taken.

Taking precautions

Here in the East Midlands, we're in tier 3 which is supposedly at a high rate of infection for covid. I will be taking every precaution possible. Wearing masks is compulsory in buildings so that is a priority. Nathan will be coming with me, so I feel safe and secure. The weather is rather chilly, so I will definitely be covering up and keeping as warm as possible.

Rediscovering me

I've always been so afraid to do things for myself in case I fail. I've learned through this experience that I can do so much more than I thought I could. I'm grateful for the chance to be able to do that and my new life is a blessing to me.

I've always believed in myself. Now I'm sure of myself.

Editor's Note: We are heartbroken to share that Liana passed away in November of 2021. She is deeply missed but her encouragement and positivity live on through her articles. Thank you for everything, Liana.