How Overwhelming Moving Has Been
It was quite a surreal moment seeing my family after so long. They hadn't been around when I was diagnosed, so I'm sure it was a shock. I wasn't the bouncy, bubbly person they remembered. My sisters-in-law were so kind and I could see how painful it was for them. Everyone's concern was a bit overwhelming, but it's only normal when people love you.
Walking on egg shells
It was something I was very aware of. I didn't want them to treat me any differently because of my condition. Unfortunately, it's human nature and that's exactly what happened. I couldn't blame them and the more time I spent with them, the easier it got for us all.
I found it so easy to do and I think it helped them understand me better. It was so hard for them to come to terms with initially. My positive outlook on life and my motivation for a better life gave them hope.
Doing things for myself
When I arrived, I knew that I would have to do some things I feared. One of them was climbing stairs. To my surprise, I didn't find them too difficult at all. I was out of breath but managed well. Choosing to bathe or shower was another struggle to overcome. Before moving I only showered because our bath was too high to get into. Here I had a choice because the bath was perfect. I now bath daily without fear. That's a milestone for me. I've got some of my independence back.
Doctor in my new country
It was quite an easy process to make a doctor's appointment because I'm a British citizen. The efficiency of the system here was an eye-opener. As soon as I got my NHS number, I was contacted by a doctor who telephonically appraised my health and wanted to know what medications I was on. I found out later that it would cost me nothing. To me, that was just amazing.
My first appointment
I have one tomorrow. Since the beginning of the year, I've been losing weight. For this reason, the doctor has asked for a full blood test. It's quite a scary time for me, but I feel supported and loved so it helps. Tomorrow I will be traveling to the next town over to have my blood taken.
Here in the East Midlands, we're in tier 3 which is supposedly at a high rate of infection for covid. I will be taking every precaution possible. Wearing masks is compulsory in buildings so that is a priority. Nathan will be coming with me, so I feel safe and secure. The weather is rather chilly, so I will definitely be covering up and keeping as warm as possible.
I've always been so afraid to do things for myself in case I fail. I've learned through this experience that I can do so much more than I thought I could. I'm grateful for the chance to be able to do that and my new life is a blessing to me.
I've always believed in myself. Now I'm sure of myself.
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