Enjoying retirement

Hi . It’s hard isn’t it? Thank you for sharing that, I’m sure that others are going through similar. My husband has health issues and I have mine. We live a block and a half off the Missouri River. We have both commented through the years, how a person works hard hoping to enjoy retirement that somehow skipped by us.
I tell you that, because you aren’t alone. I struggle with accepting that this is my life, these 4 walls. I never liked being indoors, now there is little choice. My lungs say no humidity or smoke. Down time seems to fill more time than up time. It’s actually redirected my thinking. I love to write. I did when I was younger and I realized that I kept that love with me. I so enjoy doing crafts, my body resists that and baking, so I do what I can.
Family doesn’t get together very often, because they have health issues too. FaceTime is such a wonderful thing, unless it’s a bad day, then I hide under the covers of my bed lol.
I’m sorry that this is so lengthy. Pocobell, I’m so glad that you shared. That’s what friends are for. Know that you aren’t alone. Some of us share the same, or similar things, but there is always someone who cares. Know that you aren’t alone.

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I can certainly understand your feelings. I live right across the street from Lake Placid, a dammed up portion of the Guadalupe River in Seguin Texas. My grandsons live 5 houses up the street on the lakeside of the street. My wife and I moved here to be with our grandsons. I looked forward to fishing as much as I could and teaching my grandsons how to fish and fishing with them. That lasted all of two years, then COPD happened. Now I am lucky to get outside a few times a year. Every time I spend more time than I should or go where I shouldn't, I pay the price with a flare up. After spending twice in the hospital the past 4 years (once, a week in ICU) with pneumonia, I watch very closely when I go out and have to debate myself if it is worth the chance I will pay the price of getting sick and being back in the hospital. What makes me the most depressed is not being able to do things outside with my grandsons. It definitely makes me sad and depressed. But I have no choice but to deal with it. I do my best to look at the silver linings in my life. No matter how few they seem to be. I am still alive. I see my grandsons weekly and get to enjoy their company. I get to read books on my kindle daily. I get to play my keyboard and continue to compose and record. I get to let my grandsons play my keyboard and enjoy recording their playing. I get to watch all the TV I want. Sports, movies, and TV series. I am not on Oxygen yet. I have a great medical team who are very responsive to all my needs to keep this disease at bay. My medical team is less than 10 miles away. I recently started doodling with pencil for artwork. So life can be miserable, but I try to make it not so. It is all in our perspective. Easier said than done sometimes, but still our own happiness is our responsibility. Take care can God Bless!