I don't know where to turn.

I'm rick, I'm 61 I've had copd for four years well much longer really. I'm about at the end of my rope, i just don't know what to do anymore. I'm at stage 3 severe and I'm sure there are many worse off than me but it seems like the system is trying to get rid of me and those like me, my problem is this, I've applied for social security disability and I've been turned down once reapplied, went to thier Dr did all they asked and I'm waiting for the determination, no word.

My current sitution

You see I haven't been able to work since before the pandemic began, i have zero income no savings no assets except the house i live in that belongs to me and my 2 sisters which will have to be sold soon. Its march, im in Alaska so its cold my power got shut off for non payment I've tried every government agency that I could find to get help im on Medicare so that's not an issue but every time I try to get some help the door gets slammed in my face I've had to sleep on friends couches because I don't have heat or electricity and that lasts about a week then i have to move because they don't want the responsibility or they think I'm going to die or some other excuse. I can't count on family i feel like the world is against me, I'm basically homeless with no income and no hope for any.

Trying to find help

I have a lawyer for SSI disability, but he wont help me, he wants to stretch it out as long as possible so he will make more, my friends are getting tired of putting up with me and paying for the electricity i use for the oxygen machine i need and giving me a ride to Dr appointments because I don't have a car anymore. Everywhere i turn i get blocked by bureaucratic red tape, lack of money or something else, it's hard for a poor person to stay alive let alone break even or get ahead. Every waking hour im working to do what it takes for me to stay alive and that takes all my time.


People say they want to help but when it comes down to it they don't want to put forth the effort or the expense. All my life I've tried to help others, showing kindness and generosity, it seems that today peoples morals have changed and they would rather kick a man when hes down. Today i had bread and some water no oxygen because there is no place to plug it in. I hate the thought of having to go to the rescue mission I've always been able to take care of myself, I know that there are programs that can help and I've tried on line to apply for them and I just get the runaround and have to start all over, im beyond frustrated, i don't want to give up hope but i can't see a light at the end of the tunnel, im open for suggestions! I have to get back at it I've spent to much time on this, i need to chop wood for the fire to keep warm tonight. Let me make this clear im not looking for sympathy, im just looking for a way out of this situation.

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