End of a Horrible Year
I have been here before so I will stick to the basics. At the start of Nov. I was blissfully unaware that anything was wrong other than what I was going through. Then in mid month I got this really bad cough. Being a life long smoker I had been coughing every morning for some time but this was different. I thought it was a virus or an infection until one day I was walking to the store and I started gasping for air. It only lasted a few seconds but it was enough to scare the hell out of me. So I went to a clinic, had some tests done and was diagnosed with EMPHYSEMA!!! I was shocked and to be honest went straight to the denial stage. It's not possible I thought. Having been diagnosed with clinical depression and a severe anxiety disorder in the last half of 2014 the news was devastating. Having seen that one of the signs of Emphysema was depression/anxiety (and I can certainly understand why), all I could think of was "I am in deep trouble here", as none of the medications I have been prescribed for the last 5 years has done much more than allow me to function. Depression makes you fatigued and emphysema makes you fatigued, so its amazing I can get out of bed at all. So far I have tried and failed to quit smoking 3 times. I have seriously considering trying E-cigarettes. Even if they don't make things any better they might be the perfect way to quit. As Leon once said "the juries still out on this one", but having spent almost a whole day looking up various sites, they seem to be about 70-75% positive. Thanks for reading.....sardonicus
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