mersadie
"Anxiety is running away with me and keeping me terrified- yet, I don't know why...help me please..."
I have had that feeling. Just panic trying to fly round in my brain. Heart-pounding, gut-wrenching anxiety, for no reason I can pin down. For me, it is usually the jolting realization that this disease could kill me. At 74, I'm not nearly ready to go. But I have to remember that there are a lot of other things that could get me, such as a heart attack, a car accident, or drowning in the bathtub. People do. But none of those are at issue right now. So I take myself down the path of realistic probability, and check myself out. None of us know what is going to happen in the next five minutes, a truth which was told me by one of our dear moderators here. Think about that. An asteroid could hit the earth. Or germ warfare, or, or anything. Because we don't know the future, all we can do is lay out plans for what we think is going to happen, and say our prayers. And do our best. And not worry about it. 
Hi CM520, and thanks for lending your own support and encouragement here. We also appreciate you sharing how you manage this aspect of the disease - anxiety and uncertainty!
Warm regards,
Leon (site moderator COPD.net)
Hi @mersadie, I am so glad you reached out to our community. I can understand your concerns. I really hope we can help you. I am sending you over an article from one of our advocates who shares the same feelings, I hope these tips can help. We are here for you. Jill, COPD.net, team member
Sending you a hug today Mersadie. How are you feeling since you posted this? It can be so hard to deal with anxiety, especially when you don't know why! I have been there and still struggle at times. Have you thought about talking with a counselor? The majority are offering online (telehealth) services thanks to the pandemic, and it can feel really good to have someone listen and teach you some new tools for dealing with the emotional side of COPD. You can also feel free to write to us anytime. Hang in there ... be gentle with yourself. -Melissa, copd.net team