Where Does Happiness Come From?

I started the day overwhelmed, coughing, down, tired, and broke. From there I sat down to take my meds and to relax a bit in front of the TV.

I got up and shook my head. I am losing my mind! Really, I am! I was grinning ear to ear and felt happy. Why? I don’t know. It seems like the best place to be.

Feeling happy feels like a new experience. I don’t even want to know why. If I could skip, I would. If I could run, I would do that, too!

That was two days ago.

Finding happiness and rest among COPD challenges

Yesterday, I was still short of breath and coughing. I just finished a round of antibiotics a couple of days ago and another of prednisone. There is no worry, panic, or anything else. There is confidence, relaxation, peace, and contentment.

It’s crazy. I must be crazy! This is a time I do love this COPD world, in this moment anyway.

Where else can a person feel so sick, take meds, and feel down? Then it’s like somebody pulled the covers off my head. I can breathe, feel peace, and even happiness. I like this place!

I am the kind of person who likes answers to things. I know it drives people crazy. It helps me to know what’s going on, so I’m sure I understand what they are telling me.

Then, I know what kind of response others are looking for. This happiness and contentment don’t make sense in the mix of many life things in my family.

Yet, it’s still a blessing. I will choose the gratitude attitude now. Can I bottle it, please?

Navigating a new day with hope

Today is a new day. I slept off and on during the night. I wake up periodically to check on my husband, always to make sure he is breathing and that everything is ok. He had a triple bypass last fall. He is also a diabetic. He periodically wakes, too.

His glucose is too high or too low every so often. Clues to help diabetes be more manageable or, better yet, go away. Yet, he watches to make sure I’m breathing. He can’t always tell.

Wouldn’t it be nice to have cures for diabetes and our human hearts? Wouldn’t it be nice to have a cure for COPD? For asthma and other lung diseases?

here are so many with health issues. I need to be grateful that I do not have more health issues or some of the other ones.

Finding inner peace

So, where did this happiness come from? I would guess that it came from someplace deep inside, where that part of me realizes that I deserve peace and many smiles. I’m sure that I will encounter other moods.

For now, I will wear those rose-colored glasses and bask in happiness. It’s the silliest thing; life feels surprisingly good.

Breathe easy, and know that you aren’t alone.