A Spiritual Life With COPD
What do we do when life seems bigger than us? When our COPD is bigger than us? When we seem to have no control of our own bodies and our ability to breathe at times? What do we do when no one understands what we are going through? When there is no one, no friend, or relative that we can think of? No one to talk to. That’s when I would look up and embark on a spiritual life with COPD.
A spiritual life with COPD
When life gets difficult or when we get sick, when we are diagnosed and living with COPD, we often need someone or something to hang onto. When we reach out that hand, asking for someone to grab hold, we might be experiencing one of the first experiences in spiritual life. We can possibly see this as being bigger than we are, as a power greater than ourselves. They use whatever or whomever they choose.
I am a Christian who frequently turns to prayer. Whether for my family, for a friend or even myself, I pray. I pray for all things, I also pray to Jesus for miracles. I have been waking up a number of times, just needing to pray. I don’t always know about what or why, but I know to pray and then go back to sleep. Since others have joined me in prayer online, I do have a Christian prayer site on Facebook. Here we can pray for each other, for whoever is in need, as well as the world. I don’t believe that we can pray enough.
It is a place of comfort
When we are babies, our parents possibly introduced us to God, to Jesus, or the Holy Spirit. Maybe to a religion, to a church, or to some type of spiritual life. Maybe this didn’t happen until we were a bit older, or maybe we found a spiritual life on our own. When I think of spiritual life, it is a place of comfort. Yet, it can also be a time of bargaining.
I don’t know how it is in your life. For myself and possibly others, sometimes we need to feel that there is something or someone in our lives that can help us feel safe. This can provide comfort. Prayer can provide peace, it can be uplifting. We aren’t alone when we have someone to turn to, someone to guide and direct our lives. Someone to give us strength. Someone to help us cope with COPD and/or another illness that we may have. We might have hope of feeling better or even some hope to help us get through the rocky times.
This thing called bargaining
Then, there is this thing called bargaining. It comes when we tell God that if He does this, we will do that. Here is a perfect example, and yes, this really happened.
My oldest daughter, my first baby, was born in 1973. I had been released from the hospital, probably one day earlier. You see, my baby girl had to stay in the hospital because she had projectile vomited almost constantly and couldn’t hold a bottle down. It was terrifying. Then I got the phone call that no 18-year old mother or anyone should ever hear: “Would you like to have the priest come, to perform last rites?”
For the love of my newborn infant, bargaining began. We prayed and prayed. As we went to the hospital. My mom told God that if He heals this new baby, she would quit smoking. And she did! The x-rays were for another baby, who thankfully survived. It turns out that my baby had thrush and was released the next day or two. That’s bargaining. My mom never smoked again.
We are still alive
Sometimes we find ourselves grieving about our life. But it isn’t natural to grieve over something that isn’t dead or even dying, is it? Our COPD might make us feel that we are dying, yet we are still alive. Can a person really grieve over our lives while we are alive? Yes, we can. That’s when a person often grieves, maybe unknowingly. By going through the grieving process, it might help us to accept our health and our new lives. In 2017, I wrote an article on this very topic, “Yes, We Do Grieve Our Old Lives”.
All of these questions and answers discuss a spiritual life. They tell us that many others too believe in spiritual life. A life bigger than ourselves. Providing someone to talk with, someone to guide us. Someone to believe in. To me, spiritual life also brings a promise of eternal life.
Which of the following best describes your COPD diagnosis?