CommunityMember947
"Feeling confused, angry and hot. Almost every night I have a low grade fever, but Doc put me on 30 days antibiotics, as well as a stronger 7 day plus prednisone. My friend Bruce is supposed to go see about cochlear implants next week, but we have been kind of stranded with our flooding. Livingston Texas. Not sure if we can make the 70 mile trip due to the highway being closed. I have caught Bruce in a lie. He told his niece I was running around in a panic looking for power for my oxygen. He has never been in a weather emergency, and I have been in many. I also had to charge my phone as our power went out. I know how to prep for hurricanes, tornados etc. He also seems to ignore my questions or conversations with him. He sleeps till noon, then naps for 2 or 3 hours. I spend my time just sitting watching a movie or something. I feel like I am on my own, even with him next door. I told him If we go to Oregon, I was not coming back. He wants to stay up there with me. I dont want him there. He has our small piece of property with his garden hobby and a few friends. He knows no one in Oregon anymore. I also know no one, but it is where I want to go to so I can die in a place I love. Sorry for ranting, but I have no one to talk to here. If his 2 appointments get cancelled, then I will tell him I cant stay in the Texas heat and am leaving. I cannot be his Mom anymore. I did tell him I would take care of the bills etc, through a joint account. When I have used my half, he will have to put on big boy pants and do his own thing. I have spoken to strangers about my situation, and they all say, take care of myself. I am finally realizing this. Thanks for listening again."
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. I am sorry it took a while to respond. Images have to be approved before related posts appear. I just now saw your status update and approved it. So all is good now.
What a mess. I didn't realize you were amid all the flooding. I hope things are a bit better today, I agree with your stranger-friends. You have to put yourself first. If you can do that and be happy with Bruce, great. If you can't, well ... it sounds like he has others in his life he can lean on if he reaches out. Don't ever feel the need to apologize for ranting. Rant away! That's what we are here for -- to give you support when you most need it.
I hope the antibiotics kick in and that your fever is soon gone. How are you feeling today? Please always keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. Otherwise, I will worry about you.
Thanks for brighening my day with the photo. How adorable! Even on the worst days, natural so often brings us a bit of joy. Gentle hugs! - Lori (Team Member)
Sitting here 100 temp. 10.30. Seems like every night I get a fever. I dont think we will make both of Bruces appointments, due to the floods. 1 is fine, then he will know where to go. I just found out his kind of daughter, who never calls him is a bad person. For 6 years she has pretended to like me. Now I found out through Bruces facebook, and her nasty message, that her page is for family only. I have been posting on this page for 6 years. She has asked me to send her pictures all the time. I believe Bruce has been saying bad things to her. He told her I panicked when we lost power. I told him I was going to drive my truck and charge up my portable oxygen and my phone. This is the final straw. He has an appointment on 24th May, and I will leave then. Not sure if I will pull my 27ft rv or not. I can always find another used one somewhere. I cant find a truck camper cover, so I guess tarps and plastic tubs will do. Just please let me have the strength to follow through. I am still not sure where to go, but most likely Oregon coast or northern California. Up by the Oregon coast, Cali is nice. I will leave a note for Bruce, and stay in touch, but he is useless as a caregiver. Thankyou again. This is one of my squiggles. He comes up to me for peanuts. Whatever you decide, please be safe and be careful. If you don't feel up to making the move all the way to Oregon immediately, maybe you can choose someplace closer as an interim stop or even just move out of your current situation. It would be wonderful if you could get that fever down before your leave. I am sorry to hear about Bruce's daughter. Have you considered reaching out to her and telling her how you feel? - Lori (Team Member) She told me in no uncertain circumstances her page was for family. I tried to respond, but she blocked me. We have spent a few days over Christmas with them, invited them to stay here for a vacation in our travel RV with everything they could want. Lake fishing, walking the trails. She is the kind who only thinks about herself. Forgot to say I have got utility phone and account numbers written down, titles signed by me and am on my way this morning to the courthouse to see about putting our land in Bruces name. Will take mine off. We paid $30,000 for it and it is paid for. Not worried that Bruce will try money tricks, as he is really a good person. I also thought if I was in an accident and in the hospital, he would never know because he wont check his phone. That is definately not good. Thanks again. It is really kind of you to do that for Bruce. I hope the courthouse trip went well and that you don't need to wade through a bunch of red tape to get it done. I wish his daughter was kinder and less selfish. You both deserve someone better in your lives. Sending lots more hugs your way. - Lori (Team Member)