Hey justcallmebob, so sorry you are in what I refer to as a funk at this time. Darn short days and longer nights hours. Thanks for your service, I truly appreciate those that serve(d). Like many others that were hit with Agent Orange I would suspect you are suffering from multiple chronic medical issues and that is something I can relate to, having way to many medical problems. It does get scary at times, then yip we go through the full spectrum of emotions to boot. But please try to remember there is those days that we can fight that funk right out of ourselves as we have done many times in the past. I see you say there is trouble finding counseling in the area in which you live, what about finding a clergy person and chatting with them? I am not a real religious person but they are usually a good place to start if needed, they can at least keep some good secrets LOL .. Have to tell you, you have me very curious on how you ended up in Malaga, Spain... Yes I do have an imagination and can come up with many little stories on my own, but hey would love to know how you did choose that area to live if you are willing to share of course.
May your day be a better one. Hope I here from you! Doris